Eight

Today was an awful day. School is stressing me out so incredibly much. I found out that I did really badly on my english project and that brought my grade down to a D+. Are you kidding me? A D+? It's english, I should be doing so much better in that class. I realllly don't like my teacher, so I don't even feel like talking to him right now, but I definitely need to figure something out with him so I can bring my grade up. I still have a little while before I'm even going to college but I think about it all the time. My mom won't stop lecturing me about how much I don't take school seriously and how I don't care about my work and I goof off all the time and get distracted. And she brings up college's like every single day, and tells me I need to start looking at them and figuring things out, and I'm never going to get into a good one because I don't care about my grades. Ahhhh. Oh and my asshole of a chemistry teacher is sending me to "honor board" which is this comittee at my school where you go if you violated the honor code. Which is no lying, cheating, or stealing. Last week I felt terrible at school and was faint and dizzy but the nurse wouldn't let me lay down so I just went to lay down in the library. And this was during chemistry class and we had a test. So my teacher is claiming that I straight up skipped his class just so I didn't have to take the test. Even though I told him I could take the test later that day in study hall if he needed me too, so its not like I wasn't prepared. I ended up taking the test eventually and then a week later I find out he's sending me to honor board for lying about where I was during his class. But I didn't lie at all. I don't even know what this means cos I've never been to honor board before, but it's just really upsetting. Good news is, my friend loved her cake (: It was this insane two layer chocolate cake with 3 cupcakes ontop of that. Haha I love bakingg. And I'm doing alot better on the guitar lately which I took up last year. I'm learning the song Fever Dream by Iron and Wine. And I'm feeling pretty good about fasting or just not eating very much. I have the self-control and I really think I can do it. Ahh and I bought Wintergirls yesterday, I'm so excited to read it. I started it on the car ride home and it was amazing. Absolutely amazing. I love it. I read one of her other books and it was really good too, so I want to find some others. Now I probably should go study for exams or do homework, and then I'm going to a fundraising dinner later tonight. I keep putting off weighing myself because I'm scared I haven't done well, so I'm going to weigh thursday morning. Wish me luckk.